Living In Your Letters

I’m always assuming the worst,
but you’re going on none the less
& there’s nothing to cusion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there’s something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.

Pouring over photographs.
I’m living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you & I can’t be
without that scent. It’s filling me
with all you mean to me.

Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
& you won’t let me sink
though I’m beggin you.
Phone calls from further away
& messages on my machine,
but I don’t ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever
& so do you and I.

So I’ll hit the pavement
it’s gotta be better than waiting
& pushing you far away
cause I’m scared.
So I’ll take my chances
& head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you’re ten.